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Friday, 3 August 2012

Day 3 :: The Memsaab


A golden Honda City halts at the red signal. The rear window on the right side lowers just a bit. A hand peeps out and disposes off a chocolate wrapper. Even before anyone notices it, the hand withdraws itself and the window runs up to shut the world out…

He sees this every day. The whole affair doesn’t take more than a few seconds;  yet this boy, all of eleven, noticed every small detail about the car and the mysterious hand. It fascinates him to no end. He waits in anticipation every day for the shiny golden Honda City to wait at the signal. To his young eyes, it looks like a huge goldfish, shining in the morning sun. There was not a scratch or speck of dust on the car. Ever perfect, spotless, pure. It so did not belong to the ugly weekday traffic - full of rickshaws, Municipal buses and push carts! It belongs to some Rajmarg, where it would be the only car to parade in a grand manner, he often thought.  

The hand that sent chocolate wrappers flying on the road, no less, impressed him. The hand belonged to a lady. Who else could a dainty little hand with long artistic fingers painted in hues of colours belong to? There was a sparkle on one of the fingers. He guessed it was an expensive diamond ring. Imaginative that he was, he was adept at guessing a lot about the Memsaab, based only on the features and characteristics of her hand.

He was amazed at how Memsaab changed the colour of her nails every day! One day it was bright orange, the next it would be olive green! Yellow, soft pink, blue, red, brown, silver, black, purple and sometimes even golden, just like the car! Shades of pink were his favourite, black turned him off! Ohh! So many colours! He had never seen so many colours in his drab, lackluster life!  He would sympathetically look down at himself. With a filthy shirt torn in half a dozen places, held together by tepid sewing attempts by chachi- ji; he never knew what the original colour ever was. In fact he didn’t even remember when he started wearing it! His shorts were no less a joke. Uneven zip and broken button forced him to tie a rope around his waist for it to stay in place. Clothes were unwashed for weeks, or maybe months; he abhorred his pitiful image.

These few minutes of guessing kept his spirits high. Although, he never liked it when the signal was green and the car sped away even before he had the chance to take a good look at it! He longed for the week days as much as he disliked the weekends. Perhaps the Memsaab doesn’t have to go to work on weekends, he thought. But if she is so rich; why does she have to work even? He mentally patted himself for his logical thinking and concluded that she must be a student. Yes, working hands are never so delicate. He had seen chachi-ji’s hands; rough as the tar road he was standing barefoot on.

So mesmerized was he by Memsaab, that one day he decided to collect those unwanted chocolate wrappers. He ran to grab them before they were sent soaring into the sky by other vehicles. He could almost sense the touch of Memsaab’s delicate fingers. He kept them carefully in a “Pan Parag” container. The stench of pan masala was so strong , that the intoxicating, sweet aroma of chocolate eventually faded. How he wished he had another dabba to store his treasure! But he had to make do with what he had. It was after a great deal of boisterous begging that chachi-ji had finally relented and parted with something that had belonged to her.

By and by, he had come close to collecting seventy wrappers. Alas, he would never know. He could only count  ek se dus (one to ten). That too, he had learnt from chachi-ji when, at the end of the day, she distributed biscuits bought out of begging money to four others like him. He longed to study. His horizons never faded with the end of the day. It just about began then, when he yet again fantasized about going to school and making it big! Who knew? Maybe one day he would own a golden Honda City! His thoughts always reached a full stop at the golden Honda City and its Memsaab!

‘How odd!’, he thought. ‘I have never made an attempt to even take a look at Memsaab! I never even went close to the gold car!’ With that thought fermenting in his mind, he started devising ways to encounter the car. He started approaching it with odd jobs. One day he maneuvered his way through other haphazardly strewn vehicles. He felt delirious to be so close something that he thought was unattainable! For almost three seconds he forgot he was supposed to clean the wind shield and windows of the car, allowing him to take a good look at the person whose hand was such a beautiful piece of art! He stood stupefied facing the car with a big grin on his face. He only came to, when the signal turned green and the chauffer rudely shooed him away.

He was not disappointed though. So what if he couldn’t get a glimpse of the Memsaab today; he would try again tomorrow and again the day after and again, till he found the satisfaction of seeing her.
The next day, armed with cloth and Colin(which was bought a few months ago with the children's hard earned money; diluted umpteen number of times to make it last longer), he wasted no time in rushing towards the car. He wouldn’t make the same mistake as the previous day. He would not gape like a fool. He would start his mission immediately.  

This time, the moment he sprayed a little liquid onto the windshield, the ever irritated chauffer pulled down his window and gave him a earful, ‘Gaadi saaf hai. Haath mat lagao!’ (The car is clean. Don’t touch it!’) The words seemed to be painted blood red, just like the driver’s spit. Taken aback by such a sharp retort, he ran to safety. Day 2 was indeed a flop. And what more, he had been told off; never to touch the clean beauty. What could he do now?

After days of anticipation and brainstorming, he decided he would sell magazines. People buy those. They sell like hot cakes! He would carry the filmy magazines. Surely, Memsaab would be interested in those! With these happy thoughts, he started counting the stars… he melted into peaceful sleep just before he counted dus.

Pumped with new enthusiasm, he gathered the glossy, glamorous books in his small hands and waited for what seemed like hours. The moment he noticed the car in his peripheral vision, he made a dash for it. He had also learnt some broken English words from his friends. He thought he would use them to impress Memsaab. Maybe he should call her Memsaab-ji for that added respect.

He was careful not to bang on the window, for he knew the red spit driver too well for his curt manners. He softly knocked on the right window, knowing only too well that Memsaab was on that side.  He peered through the tinted glass. All he could see was his own reflection of foul clothes and sweaty, dust-streaked face. He knocked again, this time firmer, but gently. No response. He squinted and tried to see inside. With a lot of concentration, he managed to see beyond his own image.Memsaab was busy reading newspaper. He could only see her same right hand holding the newspaper in air, covering her face entirely! Dejected and cursing his luck, he turned back.

Next few days too were a stroke of bad luck for him! Some days the signal would jump to green even before the car halted. The other day the driver admonished him yet again for touching the car with his sloppy fingers. It was when the car did not turn up for three days in a row that he was genuinely scared and worried.

On the fourth day, he saw that unmistakable shimmer of gold that seemed to float in the mid-week rush. The royal beauty gently braked and he was promptly by its side. Success was almost licking his feet, when he saw Memsaab was already digging into her purse. Certainly she was looking for exact change. He was smiling ear to ear. His dream would come true today, he thought gleefully. Meanwhile, he was busy being enthralled by her below the shoulder length hair. He could see the softness of her hair, curls at the end dangling beautifully below the right shoulder. He was instantly reminded of the shampoo ad hoarding that was put up just three days before at the junction. She must look like Bipaasa Basu. Within minutes, horns blared and he had to get out of the way. In his reverie, he forgot that Memsaab did not once look up at him. He had missed the opportunity for what seemed like the thousandth time.  

He tried several times; every time a new problem was posed to him. Probably sensing his presence,Memsaab started sitting on the other side, facing to her left!  It was next to impossible to be on the left side of the road, since it was dug up pretty deep. ‘Why do they keep digging every now and then?’ he thought bitterly. He almost gave up on his dream.

Today however, he woke up with an unusual reassurance in his mind. You will see the much awaitedMemsaab today, said a voice somewhere deep within him. He smiled at his confident thought and wondered if it would come true. Looking back at the turn of events in the past few days, he was hardly feeling optimistic! Well, what did he have to lose? He would try again today like the rest of the days.
It was almost time for the goldfish to come gliding down the road. He thought it would be best to stay on the left side of the road. Miscalculating the time today, he started running down the street without even once looking at the signal which was nowhere near red. Within seconds, he heard his bones crunching. His pretty goldfish had hit him. The pain that shot through his entire body was coming in waves. He was feeling drained, as if someone was methodically sucking life from him.

He was in and out of consciousness. In one of the fading moments, he saw the Memsaab, holding his profusely bleeding head, screaming hysterically at people who had gathered all about them, ‘It’s the signal boy! It’s the signal boy! Oh my god! Please don’t die, don’t die! Please help!’

In those morbid moments he thanked his inner voice. How it told him that he would see his Memsaab today! Oh, how beautiful she is! And her hands, ever so soft! Her voice, though loud was silken! And she called me the ‘signal boy’, she recognized me.

With these parting thoughts, he smiled, for the last time. His dream was fulfilled. At last, he slept. Peacefully!

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If you liked this, then the credit also goes to my good friend, Nishanth, who saw to it that the article came out better than how I had originally written it. Many Thanks to you, Nishanth! :)

Thursday, 2 August 2012

Day 2 :: When Ties Run Deeper

I hardly realised it was Raksha Bandhan today until I saw some FB wishes. A day when a sister ties a sacred thread onto her brothers' arms and asks for love and protection for a lifetime.

Like every brother sister duo, V and me have also celebrated this day since childhood. Of late we haven't been together on this day. However, I remember all our childhood antics, fights and fun. I particularly remember one day when we fought so badly that I refused to tie him my Rakhi. Every year that's the day I keep replaying in my mind. :)

Today evening, being alone at home with Aa, I was generally feeling lonely and depressed. Suddenly when I heard the knock on the door, i wondered if it was my friend here. It wasn't. It was a kind lady with a huge box in her hand and asked me if I was the person mentioned as addressee. I was.

I cried as I took it in my hands. I was crying and hysterically telling Aa that her mama has sent me flowers for Rakshabandhan!! Aa must have thought I was all gone. I leave you with the pictures.




I thank the lady who was concerned enough to bring the flowers up to me because she thought they might wither. Bless her!

Vinayak anna, I love you! Even though you make me cry.

Wednesday, 1 August 2012

Day 1 :: New beginnings


The training wheels are off! Yes, parents have gone back and we are all alone trying to get adjusted to our baby. Aa is used to exclusive attention from her maternal GPs. Naturally. She’s been with them since birth and their sudden absence is affecting her. And us.

My parents left yesterday and immediately it felt as if the whole house is gonna eat me up. I was all tears yesterday. Every nook and corner of my home reminds me of my parents. It was easy with them around. They took care of Aa while I ran errands around the house or vice versa. The emptiness is palpable.

I was skeptical on how my day would turn out. Surprisingly, it went well. Aa is a good child and is gorgeously cute. I am not saying this because she is my child. She is (thankfully & touchwood) not cranky/ colicky as some babies tend to be. If she missed her GPs, she didn’t show it. Not today. (Yesterday, KK had a hell of a time trying to console a weepy wife and a screaming infant. – More about that later.) I have gained a lot of confidence and have tweaked out some points where I can better myself.

Aa is manageable. Housework is manageable. The only thing that I dread is the cooking part. It’s been more than a year since I touched those pots and pans. I have no courage. Husband is very understanding, hence there is some relief.

I had mentioned earlier; way back, I think; that I wanted to start practicing Yoga. I have started now.   It’s once a week class (joined for 4 classes, 3 are up already)!!! I might just extend those for I find immense relief from my upper back ache.

Also, I am seriously thinking of shedding those post partum kilos. I know I am sooo late! Better late than never though! I was heavy at 67 kgs! (Imagine that?!) Now I am 64! (Imagine that?!) And no, I am not ashamed to shout my weight out loud.

This weight loss kind of just happened. I did not plan it. Maybe I shed them while sorting, resorting and setting up my abode. I am planning a healthy diet for myself. Not I-will-not-eat-anything-until-I-die diet. Just a healthier one, which will give me energy to last the whole long day with Aa. My ideal goal point is within the range of 52-54 kilos.

I badly want to fit into my old clothes!!!

With that our (mine and KK’s and now Aa’s) second innings have begun. We are trying to fit in. Trying to do as much possible to ease out creases. All this while, Aa is a huge cutester and entertainment. Her antics keep us amused and even if we are dead tired, she doesn’t fail to bring a smile on our face! That’s life!

With that I embark on my month long blogging journey. Hope you will accompany me, encourage and give me feedback as well.

Tomorrow : My Beautiful Home!

Tuesday, 3 July 2012

Multiplied Smiles

My Aa completed 6 months yesterday. Half a year already??! That's fast! It's like I have blinked and suddenly she's this big. This is what happens with kids, eh? They grow up? Just like that?

The months that have gone by since January have been life changing for me. I have experienced pain, love, fear, sorrow, joy, and many ups and downs. I have learnt what sacrifice means. I'd never imagined that I'd survive sleepless nights. Or that I'd send the weight machine panting under my kilos. Parenthood can change a person in so many ways!

SO,


we thought of celebrating Aa's 1/2 birthday with some fruit cake, which obviously was gonna be gulped down by her parents and grandparents.

  




But since I am such a sweetie mommy, I decided that Aa does deserve a piece of her cake for all the hard work she puts in for rolling over and trying to crawl.







and she is happy about it too!




and so are her parents - happy, proud and smiling!
For more pictures and better captions, I hope you are connected to me on Fb! (This is not an open invitation to those who are not! :P)

Blogathon update : Was toying around with the idea of staring the blog marathon with this post. That's when I decided to go ahead with it and conveyed my intention to the husband. As thoughtful as ever (and perhaps a better analyst of situations), he said I should wait since we are planning a trip to St Louis, MO (YAY!!) this weekend. "And I am in no way guaranteeing you the Wi-fi connectivity there. You might not be lucky always." 

So yes, I too agree with that. I am in no mood to disappoint myself and readers. In fact, I am gonna start with the month long commitment on 1st August 2012 - 31st August 2012 . How's that now? No estimates! Only promised dates! (Yeah I sound like some side-y advertisement) 

P.S. Parents are leaving on 31st July. I am hoping that doing a blogathon then will be thereupatic.

Friday, 8 June 2012

Home Sweet Home

Greetings from the US of A! Yes, we reached here safely and have almost settled. The journey was not smooth. With Aa crying for an hour during the first flight drained all our energy and enthusiasm! Anyway, this post is not about the past. It is about reveling in the present and looking forward to the future.

I am in love with the house. It is bigger, better and lovelier than our previous one. I am having a gala time decorating it. This time we have rented a 2 bedroom apartment (since my folks are here) and anyway here they have some rule saying only 2 people live in one bedroom apartment. Even if you have a baby, you are supposed to rent a 2 bedroom apartment. Yeah, totally :|, I know!

Husband is over the moon to finally see Aa and me. Due to the AI strike, we were unsure of flying, before finally cancelling the tickets and making a fresh booking on Lufthansa. Aa also took to her father pretty soon and awarded him with a heart melting smile as soon as she saw him.


I am already missing homeland - its sights, sounds and smell. Doesn't mean I am not happy here. I had a welcome back feeling when I landed.

All in all, I am genuinely happy after a very long time. And I hope to stay that way, being happy and spreading happiness.


So, I have been all talk about doing a blogathon this year too. Good news is that I shall soon be embarking on the month long journey. This time, promising all the readers word posts and picture posts too. Now there is so much I can (and have to) write on.  I shall start as soon as I get my husband's much needed support. :) Yeah, he pushes me to do things when I am lazy. :)

Hoping that you will stay with me on this journey, reading, encouraging, commenting on posts and giving me suggestions too. Although it seems pretty simple, it takes a lot of determination and mental energy to keep going on. I need assurance that the blog's being read. Do not shy to voice your opinion on the matter. All blogger swear by the importance of getting even a single comment for their posts. You do not necessarily have to agree with or like what I say. Different points of view add dimensions to a subject that can be explored.

Keep your eyes on this space. There shall be Fb updates of course. See you then!

Saturday, 17 March 2012

April or November?

Its been a while since I really got down to writing. Earlier, I'd spend the whole day lazing in front of the lappy, choosing right words, adding, deleting, embellishing my posts. Now that hardly happens; given the very little time period alloted to me for pouring out my mind.

Sometimes I really wish we had some sort of cord that could connect the brain to the PC. Just like camera or card reader. I'd just plug it in the slot and everything would be transferred and posted on blog. Easy?

Well, just like the previous year, I plan to do the blogathon. Yeah, I am enthusiastic about it! Although am a bit confused. I wanna do it in the month of April, but am unsure if I can sit down to do it. Lemme admit, doing 30 posts one after another is not a joke. Its a commitment that needs to be fulfilled.

I still have a fortnight or so to decide. So lesse!

If I don't do it in April, I will do it in November. I don't know why, but I keep screaming "NOVEMBER" in my head.

So, April or November? Help me decide. :)

Tuesday, 13 March 2012

Siigh!

She : Why are you staring at me now?

He : Just...

She : You stared at me 1.5 years back and that was understandable... Stop it, please! It feels awkward.

He : I'm looking at you, who was once a girl, then girlfriend, a wife and now a beautiful mother! What an amazing transformation!

... and once again, he steals her heart!

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