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Tuesday, 8 December 2009

Shraddha's going! :'(

All this while I have been disregarding the fact that one of my childhood best friends, Shraddha, is now married and will go elsewhere to be with her better half... start a new life. Today while online, she breaks the news to me. Visa approved, I'm leaving next weekend, the chat read. Instantly I felt a pang in me. It is very difficult to say what I felt.

Tejaswini, Shraddha and Purnima. We have always been THE three gals always seen together. I don't even know how long we have been friends. It was way back in the 90s. All three of us in hideous frilly frocks, mis matching hairbands and sandals, but friendship so solid that our parents had to pull us apart whenever we met at some GSB functions. Then, we'd never had enough of playing hide n seek with each other. Now, we still haven't had enough of each others' company.

We ONLY met during GSB functions when we were kids. We weren't in the same school. nor did we live in same area that we could visit each other often. Even after SSC we went in for different streams. Tejaswini- Science, Shraddha - arts and me - commerce. Three different colleges. Three different dreams. But still there was our friendship that remained. Cell phones changed our lives. Orkut and G chats embellished it further. now we were just a click away from each other and our mothers had to pull us away from our respective PCs. Such were our chat histories. We talked about inane stuff, bitched about "supposed-to-be-stud" guys on Orkut, swapped news about everything n nothing, crashed in on others' scrapbooks, spied on snaps and found out true stories, declared ourselves better that FBI...

There came a point in life when parents got serious about marriage stuff. We three were told that we were supposedly of "marriageable age". We revolted. We screamed, shouted and supported each others' opinion that we ARE still kids and we WON'T get married.

Slowly, we had to accept the fact that parents won't let us off the hook. Indeed it is time to take a new look at life. We started teasing each other... you first... NO you first.. I'm younger than you... Tu badi hai re...teri pehle honi chahiye... shaadi main bula kya...we'll come for free khaana...

Finally there came a day when Shrads announced that she'll soon be committed and married within 20 days flat. and that she will be flying to Germany. It didn't register. ... I attended her marriage... it still didn't register. I met her after marriage and teased her to the point that she was embarrassed.. it still didn't register.

However, today she says, she's going away... It hits hard. I had a lump in my throat that wouldn't go away. I couldn't even talk to Tejaswini about it, because she was stating the obvious. All of us are having the same feeling. It feels like someones burnt a hole in my heart.

Today tis Shrads, tomorrow tis gonna be TJ... after that it'll be Pallavi... one fine day, it'll be me. Life's just not fair! I have complained soo many times and it still stares back at me. Mom tried convincing me, consoling me, scolding me. But the sinking feeling doesn't go away. I wish I could hold back my time.... capture it and keep it safe for no one to take it away from me.

Shrads, we know you are gonna have a wonderful life with Hrishikesh. He'll take good care of you... Wherever you are, remember that there are 2 MAD girls in LOVE with you, who'll miss you. Tis never gonna be same for me n TJ.

I hate posting this.


  1. If you hated posting this, Ihated reading it. It brought back a lot of sad memories. No amount of stupid email or yahoo chat is make it like before. I still cry when I leave my mom's place to come to this wretched country, I cry when I bid my friends bye at the airport, I cry even louder when my mom gives her infinite gyaan "now that is you home" BS.

  2. made a little sad.
    But don't worry, you still are going to be friends. My best friend and I have been friends since we were in pigtails.She went to USA after her marriage. But we are still as close as we were before. We call each other, send mails and we know what is happening in each others lives. Infact she is coming for a visit in 2 weeks and I know we will have a blast. Chin up. The friendship remains, always.

  3. Its OK. Soon, you can meet up on orkut or gchat again.

  4. heyy... don't worry. my friends will vouch that getting married will only make you gurls closer.. and NOT take an ounce away from your friendship.

    is she moving out of the country or something?

  5. @ SJ,
    :( I know. The infinite gyaan doesn't stop.

    @ Aparna,
    I'm happy n sad at the same time. dunno what to feel. yes i read abt u n ur frnd. Gives me some relief. :)

    @ The Holy Lama,
    thats what we have promised each other! :)

    @ rayshma,
    m sure tis true. ya she's gng to germany. Somehow I have a feelin that we three gonna be in three different continents. :(

  6. I can completely understand what you are going through...It seems like everyone around me is gettng married and going's sad but inevitable..:(

    This is one of the reasons why I hate being a so-called 'grown up' :(

  7. aww... don't worry.. u can plan ur india trips together! :D

  8. you hit the nail... had three of my closest frnds (and now you) going to the US post marriage... JUST NOT FAIR !

    but life, moves on...

  9. Been a while since I visited your blog... so hadn't read this... My eyes are actually filling over... and twice at that... Now its not just one... its two...

    ...And there was one.

  10. @ rayshma,

    :) ya all that comes as consolation for me.


    I know life's not fair. it wasn't fair earlier, it isn't fair now. But we gotta accept it, u'kno?

    Sorry I cudn't speak to u the day u called me. as I sed I wudn't have been able to discuss shraddy's gng away!


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