It is during these silent phases on my blog that I am made to realise that I have admirers, rather blog admirers. A lot of you ask me when is my next blog post and why I don't write often. It is indeed heart warming to hear from readers, and the fact that they want you to write, gives a high.
Like I admitted to a friend yesterday (who asked me if I was letting it go); when I don't write, there is this constant nagging at the back of my mind. That voice keeps reminding me of how long it has been, how necessary it is and how I should gain some control over my non-writing phases. It is annoying to keep hearing that over again. And it is impossible to keep that voice at bay.
Yes, I have not been too regular on this space. And for that I apologise. In my defense (as an excuse?), I will say that I lack internal motivation as also the right resource. When I write, I put in a lot of thought, which requires peace - mental as well as physical. I need absolute silence. And a lot of time to frame it the way I do. I cannot fix myself an hour and write a post. It's just me. Even for a post that comes straight from heart, like this one, needs a long time. I write, erase and rewrite over and over. I re-read the post from the beginning after each para.
I don't just write. I indulge. How do you feel when you have that piece of chocolate? or anything that is your absolute favourite? Don't you love to take your time to enjoy the experience of that chemical reaction that is tingling every bit of you. That's exactly what I feel when I write. I like to settle down, take my time thinking and then let everything flow out.
I hate to be disturbed while writing. Any kind of distraction is not welcome. Not even music. It irritates the hell out of me. If I cannot hear myself think, then I cannot write. It looks like writing comes easily to me. It does, but only when all the above conditions are fulfilled.
Given the situation nowadays, it isn't too often that I get what I demand. It is hence difficult for me to focus and dedicate ample time. Nevertheless, there is such a lot that remains to be let out of the system.
Is it too much to ask for? Perhaps, yes. That's the way I function and to be able to function like a well-oiled engine, I just have to have what I want. :)
P.S. Next post coming soon.
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Friday, 1 November 2013
Saturday, 17 March 2012
April or November?
Its been a while since I really got down to writing. Earlier, I'd spend the whole day lazing in front of the lappy, choosing right words, adding, deleting, embellishing my posts. Now that hardly happens; given the very little time period alloted to me for pouring out my mind.
Sometimes I really wish we had some sort of cord that could connect the brain to the PC. Just like camera or card reader. I'd just plug it in the slot and everything would be transferred and posted on blog. Easy?
Well, just like the previous year, I plan to do the blogathon. Yeah, I am enthusiastic about it! Although am a bit confused. I wanna do it in the month of April, but am unsure if I can sit down to do it. Lemme admit, doing 30 posts one after another is not a joke. Its a commitment that needs to be fulfilled.
I still have a fortnight or so to decide. So lesse!
If I don't do it in April, I will do it in November. I don't know why, but I keep screaming "NOVEMBER" in my head.
So, April or November? Help me decide. :)
Sometimes I really wish we had some sort of cord that could connect the brain to the PC. Just like camera or card reader. I'd just plug it in the slot and everything would be transferred and posted on blog. Easy?
Well, just like the previous year, I plan to do the blogathon. Yeah, I am enthusiastic about it! Although am a bit confused. I wanna do it in the month of April, but am unsure if I can sit down to do it. Lemme admit, doing 30 posts one after another is not a joke. Its a commitment that needs to be fulfilled.
I still have a fortnight or so to decide. So lesse!
If I don't do it in April, I will do it in November. I don't know why, but I keep screaming "NOVEMBER" in my head.
So, April or November? Help me decide. :)
Monday, 30 January 2012
Of Awards and Rewards
Yes, this is mine now! :D
Well, this isn't just an award to be displayed; there's also a tag. :) I'm happy to oblige!
Rules for the tag :
1. Thank the person who nominated you for the award
2. Nominate 15 other bloggers and inform them of the same
3. Share 7 Random facts about yourself
And,
4. Add the Versatile Blogger Award picture to your Blog Post
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I am no one to judge how good or deserving a blog is. So I am gonna give out this award to the bloggers whose blogs I really look forward to reading... In random order
1. Namratha : Her blog, Grey Shades has many more shades than just Grey! The posts reflect her thoughts so clearly that I can see Namratha thinking! Some of those thought provoking ones are loaded with sublime humour. She makes you think, she opens your eyes and she's never afraid to call a spade, a spade.
That's why I like her and her blog too!
2. Nandita : Nandita's Little Space is full of awesome stuff and still not cluttered. I think you should read her to know what I am talking about. Sometimes she makes me go "Damn! Now, how come I didn't think of writing about this?" :)
3. Nitin : He has streaks of journalistic writing. His blog is often related to facts and current stuff going on around us. Certainly not for someone who's looking to read for time pass. His lucid posts are out there making a point; there's always a direction to his posts - never diverting or random.
You can read him at I Am, Therefore I Think!!!
4. Phatichar : Calls himself Phatichar, but his blog is anything but that. The fiction he writes is mindblowing. Although I have not read as much as I'd have loved to read, I think he deserves it for those awesome stories.
5. Preeti Shenoy : She is one of my favorite authors! If you have just read her books and like her; you should definitely read her blog that is frequently updated - You'll fall in love with her!!! Conferring this award upon her is like Tusshar Kapoor presenting the Lifetime Achievement Award to Amitabh Bachchan!
Why I love her? Her posts are full of optimism, fresh and interactive. Not only does she write wowsome, she also makes sure to respond to each and every comment for her posts.
6. Rachana : I can hardly believe that its the same girl who blogs here. I have never met her, but we have been chatting online for some years now. She is an absolute nutcase which feeds my innate necessity of being crazy too! She has blogging ka brain alag and chatting ka brain alag! I am not nominating her for being my online friend, it's truly her blog that qualifies to this award.
7. Aparna : It's been quite a while since she updated her blog, but she still remains one of my favourite blog writers. I hope this tag will bring her back to the blogging world. Follow this link to her blog.
8. Uma : Of course, she already owns this one. Yet, just to let know that her blog rocks too!
I am modifying this tag a bit. Instead of gloating about me as always, let me take this opportunity to thank all my readers, and I mean ALL! I used to feel a wee bit dejected when I didn't find overflowing comments for my posts and also that I never got any "blogger awards". But then, there came so many encouraging mails, praises and feedback from friends and relatives that I do feel greatly appreciated.
You know who you all are! Thank you so much for taking some time to write to me. It is rewarding to accept your good wishes and blessings. You have great deal of faith in me, and many expectations. When I receive such emails from you (often so unexpectedly), even when they are one liners, it makes my day.I do hope to continue entertaining you as always and bore you a little too. :)
Friday, 13 May 2011
Day 26 : Blogger error
This was displayed for the whole day yesterday, which is the reason I could not update my blog. Another blogpost coming up.
Wednesday, 4 May 2011
Day 18 : Digging up the past
I am in no mood to write something great today. Great is subjective as well as relative, mind you. Instead of digging in my mind, I thought of unearthing some previous blogposts that I love (and wonder, for some of them, did I really write all that?)
Frankly, though I am in some royal mood to, I do not want to rant nonsense like this one which I didn't know how to name or this one, again which I was not sure what to call it.
Here are some of my *personally personal* favorite posts that I love reading time and again. Listed as and how I found them, not by priority.
10. Stranger duties
11. Dilemma
I believe, this manner of blogvertising is legit. ;)
Wednesday, 30 September 2009
365 days and more to come
My blog completes a year today! :) This day, last year, around the same time or maybe it was later, with trembling fingers and unsure mind, I started blogging for the second time in my life. I made a small promise not to delete it given my eccentricity and natural pull towards deleting accounts when no one's looking. hee hee hee!
I had actually planned a supprize party for my blog. Was thinking of bringing in a cake with wordings "Happy B'day, Blog" and all. Obviously, my laziness outlived my enthusiasm. Secondary reasons though, were that I'd have to buy the cake, and gobble it myself, putting myself through the torture of gaining a whole kilo which is equivalent to that of the birthday cake... THE whole kilo that I have lost by parking myself in front of a glaring PC screen. I'd also thought of taking my sprinkled few close gals out for drinks (read: nariyal paani), with cameras capturing the odd s(l)ipping moments. But, where did my blog come into the picture? Exactly! nowhere! Heck, my sprinkled few close gals are strangers to my blog, just as I am to a Martian's pet feline from Neptune.
Speaking of strangers, have you ever had to experience an incident when you see a person you have talked with, cracked jokes with, laughed with and bitched about nothings with, yet, YET, cannot register when and where and how you know that person? Forgetting the name is not even on the list, because in the first place, you don't even know it? Felt guilty and embarrassed at the thought of approaching them and saying a "Hi, how do we know each other?", like you have worn pista-green pants with red and orange striped sleeveless collared shirt? Well, something like this happened to me... and I couldn't avoid the "upclose n personal" with the lady in question, at our common library. But, BUT, BUT, my dormant-until-now brain came to my rescue and before I could fumble for an excuse, my right side of the brain supplied the information to the left side of my brain... She was one of my french-class-attending-public.
Anyways public, coming to what I was saying... I cancelled out the large scale celebrations in view of the reasons mentioned above. However, small scale celebration did take place... I ate a small cup cake....well, half of it. Hatred for sweets was handed down to me as legacy.
Speaking of which, my mom was on a complaining spree since yesterday that not me, nor my father has touched the sweet dish she'd made for Dassera and it is lying in the fridge unattended. Thank god for the invention of fridges! No fridge would mean having to finish the sweet dishes made for whatever season, reason or festival in one day flat. Meaning more fights and morer weighty issues.
Weight? Wait! I was talking about the successful 365 days completion of my dear blog! If you have been reading me, rather my blog, from day one, you would know how many of my rants and nonsensical ramblings this blog had to endure. Not that it could do much about it, but it has complained in its own small ways... like saying "Could not contact blogger. com. Saving and publishing may fail...retrying"... and that statement has never failed to get me down on my knees praying for the blogger to cooperate. and cooperate it did... eventually... after I hit the "save" button with threatening furor.
Have you ever felt threatened by the things happening around you? Like I have been? Threatened... not like scary threatened. Threatened like challengingly threatened. Where you lose your several nights' sleep thinking how to emerge victorious? Where you indulge in scheming without realizing? Where you jump at a slightest provocation? Where you promise yourself that you won't sleep peacefully until you have had the chance to get even?
Even when I write all this, I still realise that I'm supposed to be talking about my blog. But whatodo? I have these timed chemical injections in my brain that just flow through my veins, pour out of my fingers onto the kb and eventually on the blog. It is an involuntary movement that I can hardly wish to stop.
So, here's wishing my blog a Habby Dabby Budday!! with lotsa mad, sad, happy grave, nonsensical, mature, idiotic, thought provoking moments to come in the future.
However, my (very close) proud blog moments were
1. When I meet one of my schoolmates at a friend's wedding and the second sentence she says "Your blog is lovely. You write well ya!" (This is a schoolmate, classmate rather with whom, I'd lost contact since our SSC result day)
2. When my interviewers ask me my writing experience and I quote my blog. They ask for my blog URL then n there, feed it in their browser and check it up in front of me and say "Impressive... I can see many people have liked what you have written!" and
3. One boring morning at the office, I find an exhilarating mail from Mahesh saying "We find your blog interesting and would like to feature it...."
Once again, Happy Birthday to my second term as a blogger! AND, here's wishing my blog commentors a "Happy Anniversary!!" 365 days of togetherness means a lot to me. You have been very encouraging, lovely, enthu, supporting, loving and a grrrrreat audience. I'm sure you understand the intoxication of a fully filled "comments" section. ;) Well, treat yourselves to a nice black forest cake, on my behalf, from Bakers' Basket while I go back to contemplating the risk of additional 1 kg.
I had actually planned a supprize party for my blog. Was thinking of bringing in a cake with wordings "Happy B'day, Blog" and all. Obviously, my laziness outlived my enthusiasm. Secondary reasons though, were that I'd have to buy the cake, and gobble it myself, putting myself through the torture of gaining a whole kilo which is equivalent to that of the birthday cake... THE whole kilo that I have lost by parking myself in front of a glaring PC screen. I'd also thought of taking my sprinkled few close gals out for drinks (read: nariyal paani), with cameras capturing the odd s(l)ipping moments. But, where did my blog come into the picture? Exactly! nowhere! Heck, my sprinkled few close gals are strangers to my blog, just as I am to a Martian's pet feline from Neptune.
Speaking of strangers, have you ever had to experience an incident when you see a person you have talked with, cracked jokes with, laughed with and bitched about nothings with, yet, YET, cannot register when and where and how you know that person? Forgetting the name is not even on the list, because in the first place, you don't even know it? Felt guilty and embarrassed at the thought of approaching them and saying a "Hi, how do we know each other?", like you have worn pista-green pants with red and orange striped sleeveless collared shirt? Well, something like this happened to me... and I couldn't avoid the "upclose n personal" with the lady in question, at our common library. But, BUT, BUT, my dormant-until-now brain came to my rescue and before I could fumble for an excuse, my right side of the brain supplied the information to the left side of my brain... She was one of my french-class-attending-public.
Anyways public, coming to what I was saying... I cancelled out the large scale celebrations in view of the reasons mentioned above. However, small scale celebration did take place... I ate a small cup cake....well, half of it. Hatred for sweets was handed down to me as legacy.
Speaking of which, my mom was on a complaining spree since yesterday that not me, nor my father has touched the sweet dish she'd made for Dassera and it is lying in the fridge unattended. Thank god for the invention of fridges! No fridge would mean having to finish the sweet dishes made for whatever season, reason or festival in one day flat. Meaning more fights and morer weighty issues.
Weight? Wait! I was talking about the successful 365 days completion of my dear blog! If you have been reading me, rather my blog, from day one, you would know how many of my rants and nonsensical ramblings this blog had to endure. Not that it could do much about it, but it has complained in its own small ways... like saying "Could not contact blogger. com. Saving and publishing may fail...retrying"... and that statement has never failed to get me down on my knees praying for the blogger to cooperate. and cooperate it did... eventually... after I hit the "save" button with threatening furor.
Have you ever felt threatened by the things happening around you? Like I have been? Threatened... not like scary threatened. Threatened like challengingly threatened. Where you lose your several nights' sleep thinking how to emerge victorious? Where you indulge in scheming without realizing? Where you jump at a slightest provocation? Where you promise yourself that you won't sleep peacefully until you have had the chance to get even?
Even when I write all this, I still realise that I'm supposed to be talking about my blog. But whatodo? I have these timed chemical injections in my brain that just flow through my veins, pour out of my fingers onto the kb and eventually on the blog. It is an involuntary movement that I can hardly wish to stop.
So, here's wishing my blog a Habby Dabby Budday!! with lotsa mad, sad, happy grave, nonsensical, mature, idiotic, thought provoking moments to come in the future.
However, my (very close) proud blog moments were
1. When I meet one of my schoolmates at a friend's wedding and the second sentence she says "Your blog is lovely. You write well ya!" (This is a schoolmate, classmate rather with whom, I'd lost contact since our SSC result day)
2. When my interviewers ask me my writing experience and I quote my blog. They ask for my blog URL then n there, feed it in their browser and check it up in front of me and say "Impressive... I can see many people have liked what you have written!" and
3. One boring morning at the office, I find an exhilarating mail from Mahesh saying "We find your blog interesting and would like to feature it...."
Once again, Happy Birthday to my second term as a blogger! AND, here's wishing my blog commentors a "Happy Anniversary!!" 365 days of togetherness means a lot to me. You have been very encouraging, lovely, enthu, supporting, loving and a grrrrreat audience. I'm sure you understand the intoxication of a fully filled "comments" section. ;) Well, treat yourselves to a nice black forest cake, on my behalf, from Bakers' Basket while I go back to contemplating the risk of additional 1 kg.
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