I'm genuinely happy!! :) :) :) In addition to "my obvious reasons" to be happy, there are certain other stuff, biiiiig stuff rather, that's keeping a smile pasted on my face 24*7.
It actually brings me to new heights of happiness when I hear "getting hitched" news from friends. Especially when the "getting hitched" part has a nice story behind it and friends willingly share it with you.
I was over the moon when a school friend of mine (just 10 mins back) broke the news to me while I was narrating "my story" to her. What do you do when gaiety multiplies? Smile so hard that your facial muscles stretch, strain and pain, but still you don't want to let go of that smile. This is just one of such blasting news that triggered this post.
It feels like a season of "being congratulated" and "congratulating others". A friend found a job, another found a life partner, yet another is in the process of dumping her current boyfriend and finding a new one, one more friend is in line for some good career surprises... all in all, a good time to celebrate.
I didn't know that good news too, spreads like fire. :) I was amazed to hear my childhood friend's voice from Dehradun calling to wish me and drop in a tip or two about married life; plus an invitation to stay over at their place. It is baffling, even for me, to acknowledge such depth of friendship - no matter how long we have not talked to each other, no matter how many times we break the promises of catching up when she's here... we always manage to start from where we have left...
And for some people who I thought never cared a damn if I existed or not, are holding me close and saying "it'll not be the same without you."
I guess, this occasion in my life will tighten my bonds with people around me.
A reason to smile is always welcome and what more could it be when friends and family find you worthy of sharing it?
Tuesday, 26 January 2010
Sunday, 17 January 2010
Change of Status
Haaaa.. it feels good to be back to blogging again... seems like ages since I last blogged. Well, what happened since the last time I posted a blog post? Believe me, lots! Yes, I do know that I was supposed to reveal details about "the guy" I couldn't say no to....
Sadly, as you all already know it, I'm a serial procrastinator and believe in 'why do something today when you can put it off for tomorrow'; I obviously did not blog.
Coming back to where I started... from December 21st to today, my status has changed from "Still Single" to "in a relationship" to "Engaged". Trust me, even though the days seemed to drag by, I never realised when all this happened within a flash. Everyone's bombarding me with questions and i'm trying my best to answer them. As a result, now, every person that's not so special or not even a friend knows the history and my close friends are still clueless. I'm honestly lost and do not know who knows/ doesn't know about my "changed relationship status".
Anyway, the biiiiiiiiig day falls on April 9th this year... and I'm all :D :D :D !!
I have put in my resignation at work place and am gonna be working for next 15 days ONLY! I'm happy that I'll have some time to be at home; while I'm sad that I'll miss all the fun we've had at the office with my insane colleagues. Yes, I'm not leaving a chance of blogging about them. One post exclusively dedicated to them will come up...sooner or later.
And reserving the Best for the Last - The guy I couldn't say a 'no' to happens to be Kiranraj Kamath; you know him as KK in the comments section. :) :) :)
We are happily welcoming Good Wishes and Blessings! :)
Sadly, as you all already know it, I'm a serial procrastinator and believe in 'why do something today when you can put it off for tomorrow'; I obviously did not blog.
Coming back to where I started... from December 21st to today, my status has changed from "Still Single" to "in a relationship" to "Engaged". Trust me, even though the days seemed to drag by, I never realised when all this happened within a flash. Everyone's bombarding me with questions and i'm trying my best to answer them. As a result, now, every person that's not so special or not even a friend knows the history and my close friends are still clueless. I'm honestly lost and do not know who knows/ doesn't know about my "changed relationship status".
Anyway, the biiiiiiiiig day falls on April 9th this year... and I'm all :D :D :D !!
I have put in my resignation at work place and am gonna be working for next 15 days ONLY! I'm happy that I'll have some time to be at home; while I'm sad that I'll miss all the fun we've had at the office with my insane colleagues. Yes, I'm not leaving a chance of blogging about them. One post exclusively dedicated to them will come up...sooner or later.
And reserving the Best for the Last - The guy I couldn't say a 'no' to happens to be Kiranraj Kamath; you know him as KK in the comments section. :) :) :)
We are happily welcoming Good Wishes and Blessings! :)
Monday, 21 December 2009
Tuesday, 8 December 2009
Shraddha's going! :'(
All this while I have been disregarding the fact that one of my childhood best friends, Shraddha, is now married and will go elsewhere to be with her better half... start a new life. Today while online, she breaks the news to me. Visa approved, I'm leaving next weekend, the chat read. Instantly I felt a pang in me. It is very difficult to say what I felt.
Tejaswini, Shraddha and Purnima. We have always been THE three gals always seen together. I don't even know how long we have been friends. It was way back in the 90s. All three of us in hideous frilly frocks, mis matching hairbands and sandals, but friendship so solid that our parents had to pull us apart whenever we met at some GSB functions. Then, we'd never had enough of playing hide n seek with each other. Now, we still haven't had enough of each others' company.
We ONLY met during GSB functions when we were kids. We weren't in the same school. nor did we live in same area that we could visit each other often. Even after SSC we went in for different streams. Tejaswini- Science, Shraddha - arts and me - commerce. Three different colleges. Three different dreams. But still there was our friendship that remained. Cell phones changed our lives. Orkut and G chats embellished it further. now we were just a click away from each other and our mothers had to pull us away from our respective PCs. Such were our chat histories. We talked about inane stuff, bitched about "supposed-to-be-stud" guys on Orkut, swapped news about everything n nothing, crashed in on others' scrapbooks, spied on snaps and found out true stories, declared ourselves better that FBI...
There came a point in life when parents got serious about marriage stuff. We three were told that we were supposedly of "marriageable age". We revolted. We screamed, shouted and supported each others' opinion that we ARE still kids and we WON'T get married.
Slowly, we had to accept the fact that parents won't let us off the hook. Indeed it is time to take a new look at life. We started teasing each other... you first... NO you first.. I'm younger than you... Tu badi hai re...teri pehle honi chahiye... shaadi main bula kya...we'll come for free khaana...
Finally there came a day when Shrads announced that she'll soon be committed and married within 20 days flat. and that she will be flying to Germany. It didn't register. ... I attended her marriage... it still didn't register. I met her after marriage and teased her to the point that she was embarrassed.. it still didn't register.
However, today she says, she's going away... It hits hard. I had a lump in my throat that wouldn't go away. I couldn't even talk to Tejaswini about it, because she was stating the obvious. All of us are having the same feeling. It feels like someones burnt a hole in my heart.
Today tis Shrads, tomorrow tis gonna be TJ... after that it'll be Pallavi... one fine day, it'll be me. Life's just not fair! I have complained soo many times and it still stares back at me. Mom tried convincing me, consoling me, scolding me. But the sinking feeling doesn't go away. I wish I could hold back my time.... capture it and keep it safe for no one to take it away from me.
Shrads, we know you are gonna have a wonderful life with Hrishikesh. He'll take good care of you... Wherever you are, remember that there are 2 MAD girls in LOVE with you, who'll miss you. Tis never gonna be same for me n TJ.
I hate posting this.
Tejaswini, Shraddha and Purnima. We have always been THE three gals always seen together. I don't even know how long we have been friends. It was way back in the 90s. All three of us in hideous frilly frocks, mis matching hairbands and sandals, but friendship so solid that our parents had to pull us apart whenever we met at some GSB functions. Then, we'd never had enough of playing hide n seek with each other. Now, we still haven't had enough of each others' company.
We ONLY met during GSB functions when we were kids. We weren't in the same school. nor did we live in same area that we could visit each other often. Even after SSC we went in for different streams. Tejaswini- Science, Shraddha - arts and me - commerce. Three different colleges. Three different dreams. But still there was our friendship that remained. Cell phones changed our lives. Orkut and G chats embellished it further. now we were just a click away from each other and our mothers had to pull us away from our respective PCs. Such were our chat histories. We talked about inane stuff, bitched about "supposed-to-be-stud" guys on Orkut, swapped news about everything n nothing, crashed in on others' scrapbooks, spied on snaps and found out true stories, declared ourselves better that FBI...
There came a point in life when parents got serious about marriage stuff. We three were told that we were supposedly of "marriageable age". We revolted. We screamed, shouted and supported each others' opinion that we ARE still kids and we WON'T get married.
Slowly, we had to accept the fact that parents won't let us off the hook. Indeed it is time to take a new look at life. We started teasing each other... you first... NO you first.. I'm younger than you... Tu badi hai re...teri pehle honi chahiye... shaadi main bula kya...we'll come for free khaana...
Finally there came a day when Shrads announced that she'll soon be committed and married within 20 days flat. and that she will be flying to Germany. It didn't register. ... I attended her marriage... it still didn't register. I met her after marriage and teased her to the point that she was embarrassed.. it still didn't register.
However, today she says, she's going away... It hits hard. I had a lump in my throat that wouldn't go away. I couldn't even talk to Tejaswini about it, because she was stating the obvious. All of us are having the same feeling. It feels like someones burnt a hole in my heart.
Today tis Shrads, tomorrow tis gonna be TJ... after that it'll be Pallavi... one fine day, it'll be me. Life's just not fair! I have complained soo many times and it still stares back at me. Mom tried convincing me, consoling me, scolding me. But the sinking feeling doesn't go away. I wish I could hold back my time.... capture it and keep it safe for no one to take it away from me.
Shrads, we know you are gonna have a wonderful life with Hrishikesh. He'll take good care of you... Wherever you are, remember that there are 2 MAD girls in LOVE with you, who'll miss you. Tis never gonna be same for me n TJ.
I hate posting this.
Wednesday, 2 December 2009
LDR Phone call
He : Hi!! wassup?
She : Hi sweetie. nuthin. thinkin about you, what else?
He : *tunes up* riyally?
She : ummm..hhmm.. what you doing?
He : me? talking to you.
She : *doesn't find it funny but* hee hee hee...how cute. so wassup?
He : nuthing new. I think about you... everytime. babes, when do we meet again?
She : My flirt! and when do you work? *puppy expression and tone* I know baybee, i'm dying to see you.
He : hmm...so?
She : so what?
He : Wassup with ur Hitler?
She : *fakes anger* My daddu's not Hitler. He's strict that's it. I haven't talked to him after that day. why?
He : Just. He's never gonna say yes to our relationship.
She : Baby, now don't spoil your mood now. tell me what did u eat? hey whats the time there?
He : No. I want to talk about it.... him, sorry. why can't that $#%^& understand? he's sucha....
She : *now really angry* Stop it! You can't talk about my dad that way. He's my dad!!! he's..
He : *Raises voice* Yea right! he's ur darling dad. and I'm no one for u. I know it. I dunno why I even...
She : If u were no one, I wouldn't make this international call to you at 1 in the morning. do you get me? U cannot insult my dad. let me tell you for the 1000th time now.
He : *silence* ...
She : *silence* ...
He : sorry. I'm sorry. I shudn't have lost my cool.
She : *silence*
He : Babes, I sed i'm sorry. say something to me.
She : what do I say? each time i say something, you connect it to my dad and all hell breaks loose. i love you both. *starts crying*
He : baby, baybeee, please. please. dont cry now. what can i say now.
She : *sheepishly*. say you love me.
He : I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you to pieces. happy?
She : *giggles* i love you too. ok hold on... just a min....
He : why what happened?... hey? dont disconnect.
She : *silence*
He : whaaaat? wassup?
She : No nuthing. i thought dad got up. He'd hear me no?
He : Here we go again. U know. I think we shud elope. get married. and not show our faces ever again to your family. anyway, your dad and bully brother hate me. Aunty hates me too. Everyone in your family hates me ya! we shud run away.
She : does your mother like me?
He : She likes you.
She : *angry* Yeah right. That's why last time she taunted me at least a hundred times in 5 minutes. I have taken away her only kid' it seems. Now, I don't bring up ur mom everytime, do i? and you dad just doesn't care if his D-I-L is me or some other female, as far as she is not a gori mem! and guess what, you can avoid my parents for the rest of ur blissful life. But me? I have to bear yours all through mine.
He : *very angry* If u think u have to bear my parents, we can really call off this relationship, you know. Anyway, this long distance relationship isn't working. It'll save us a lot of headache, you know?
She : *Calmly* Are you serious about this? I have to know. But let me tell you, I have done a lot for this relationship to work.
He : *Calming down* I have too, you know. It's not simple. Listening to ur firang boss breathe down orders on you the whole day and get into personal mess after getting back home. Know what, even Captain Morgan doesn't help me forget all this.
She : Who's he?
He : The Boss? Firang hai yaa. leave him naa. I don wanna talk abt him now.
She : Noooo, Captain Morgan. Who's he?
He : *Irritated* arree yaar, Rum hai.
She : *shocked* You drink everyday?
He : No ya. not everyday!! don't be a typical girlfriend now. what else new? How's your job? Did ur friend get married?
She : Dude! She's 7 months pregnant now! what world are you in?
He : Ohhh? since when?
She : Since 7 months!!
He : DUH! i meant when did she get married?
She : Is it important? hey btw! I think I'm next in line for promotion.
He : oh? ok? cool.
She : That's it? I mean, u don't sound too excited. whats wrong.
He : naah nuthing. Just tired. so wassup with ur promotion thingy? Boss happy with you.
She : Change the tone, I dint like it!
He : Alright, alright! Is your work keeping your Boss happy... so much so that he thought of pushing you up your career ladder? Happy?
She : Now stop being sarcastic! If u don't wanna listen. don't. I won't tell u about it.
He : Baby. C'mon. tell me abt it.
She : hey no. some other time. its late now. almost an hour. Got office tomorrow.
He : hey 5 more minutes please. please.
She : No. Have to sleep ya. I wud love to talk the entire night.
He : Ok. you won't listen. will you dream about me?
She : Of cors sweetie. I dream every night about getting married to you.
He : and...?
She : and what? useless! nothing. then i wake up coz I have to go to the office and please my Boss, as you put it.
He : he he he he... I dream something more you know.
She : I've a censor board for my dreams. Now let me go.
He : I'm not holding you. Though I wish I were.
She : bye.
He : hey wait. what about our ritual?
She : nothing. get lost bye.
He : arrree...not fair. say naa..kaho naa pyaar hai..
She : sheeesh, how corny!! now you go to your firang boss.
He : Look, I'm straight.
She : YUCK! sheeeeeesh....go now. bye.
He : ritual?
She : BYE! Say bye!
He : *sighs* ok bye. when will i call you again?
She : you don't call me. I'll call you. Now bye.
He : I love you babes.
She : I love you too, baybee. byee.
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Concept of LDR - Long Distance Relationship was an inspiration from an incident narrated by a friend, KK.
Dialogue - Pure Imagination.
In case of any resemblance to any conversation between any LDR couple anywhere - I eavesdrop too well. :P
She : Hi sweetie. nuthin. thinkin about you, what else?
He : *tunes up* riyally?
She : ummm..hhmm.. what you doing?
He : me? talking to you.
She : *doesn't find it funny but* hee hee hee...how cute. so wassup?
He : nuthing new. I think about you... everytime. babes, when do we meet again?
She : My flirt! and when do you work? *puppy expression and tone* I know baybee, i'm dying to see you.
He : hmm...so?
She : so what?
He : Wassup with ur Hitler?
She : *fakes anger* My daddu's not Hitler. He's strict that's it. I haven't talked to him after that day. why?
He : Just. He's never gonna say yes to our relationship.
She : Baby, now don't spoil your mood now. tell me what did u eat? hey whats the time there?
He : No. I want to talk about it.... him, sorry. why can't that $#%^& understand? he's sucha....
She : *now really angry* Stop it! You can't talk about my dad that way. He's my dad!!! he's..
He : *Raises voice* Yea right! he's ur darling dad. and I'm no one for u. I know it. I dunno why I even...
She : If u were no one, I wouldn't make this international call to you at 1 in the morning. do you get me? U cannot insult my dad. let me tell you for the 1000th time now.
He : *silence* ...
She : *silence* ...
He : sorry. I'm sorry. I shudn't have lost my cool.
She : *silence*
He : Babes, I sed i'm sorry. say something to me.
She : what do I say? each time i say something, you connect it to my dad and all hell breaks loose. i love you both. *starts crying*
He : baby, baybeee, please. please. dont cry now. what can i say now.
She : *sheepishly*. say you love me.
He : I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you to pieces. happy?
She : *giggles* i love you too. ok hold on... just a min....
He : why what happened?... hey? dont disconnect.
She : *silence*
He : whaaaat? wassup?
She : No nuthing. i thought dad got up. He'd hear me no?
He : Here we go again. U know. I think we shud elope. get married. and not show our faces ever again to your family. anyway, your dad and bully brother hate me. Aunty hates me too. Everyone in your family hates me ya! we shud run away.
She : does your mother like me?
He : She likes you.
She : *angry* Yeah right. That's why last time she taunted me at least a hundred times in 5 minutes. I have taken away her only kid' it seems. Now, I don't bring up ur mom everytime, do i? and you dad just doesn't care if his D-I-L is me or some other female, as far as she is not a gori mem! and guess what, you can avoid my parents for the rest of ur blissful life. But me? I have to bear yours all through mine.
He : *very angry* If u think u have to bear my parents, we can really call off this relationship, you know. Anyway, this long distance relationship isn't working. It'll save us a lot of headache, you know?
She : *Calmly* Are you serious about this? I have to know. But let me tell you, I have done a lot for this relationship to work.
He : *Calming down* I have too, you know. It's not simple. Listening to ur firang boss breathe down orders on you the whole day and get into personal mess after getting back home. Know what, even Captain Morgan doesn't help me forget all this.
She : Who's he?
He : The Boss? Firang hai yaa. leave him naa. I don wanna talk abt him now.
She : Noooo, Captain Morgan. Who's he?
He : *Irritated* arree yaar, Rum hai.
She : *shocked* You drink everyday?
He : No ya. not everyday!! don't be a typical girlfriend now. what else new? How's your job? Did ur friend get married?
She : Dude! She's 7 months pregnant now! what world are you in?
He : Ohhh? since when?
She : Since 7 months!!
He : DUH! i meant when did she get married?
She : Is it important? hey btw! I think I'm next in line for promotion.
He : oh? ok? cool.
She : That's it? I mean, u don't sound too excited. whats wrong.
He : naah nuthing. Just tired. so wassup with ur promotion thingy? Boss happy with you.
She : Change the tone, I dint like it!
He : Alright, alright! Is your work keeping your Boss happy... so much so that he thought of pushing you up your career ladder? Happy?
She : Now stop being sarcastic! If u don't wanna listen. don't. I won't tell u about it.
He : Baby. C'mon. tell me abt it.
She : hey no. some other time. its late now. almost an hour. Got office tomorrow.
He : hey 5 more minutes please. please.
She : No. Have to sleep ya. I wud love to talk the entire night.
He : Ok. you won't listen. will you dream about me?
She : Of cors sweetie. I dream every night about getting married to you.
He : and...?
She : and what? useless! nothing. then i wake up coz I have to go to the office and please my Boss, as you put it.
He : he he he he... I dream something more you know.
She : I've a censor board for my dreams. Now let me go.
He : I'm not holding you. Though I wish I were.
She : bye.
He : hey wait. what about our ritual?
She : nothing. get lost bye.
He : arrree...not fair. say naa..kaho naa pyaar hai..
She : sheeesh, how corny!! now you go to your firang boss.
He : Look, I'm straight.
She : YUCK! sheeeeeesh....go now. bye.
He : ritual?
She : BYE! Say bye!
He : *sighs* ok bye. when will i call you again?
She : you don't call me. I'll call you. Now bye.
He : I love you babes.
She : I love you too, baybee. byee.
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Concept of LDR - Long Distance Relationship was an inspiration from an incident narrated by a friend, KK.
Dialogue - Pure Imagination.
In case of any resemblance to any conversation between any LDR couple anywhere - I eavesdrop too well. :P
Thursday, 26 November 2009
...
It's been a year today. an event that will appear in the history books in black and white, a few years from now.
Today morning, while heading to the office, heard Dr. Satyapal Singh, Commisioner of Pune, on the radio announcing that you can come and pay respect to all those who lost their life in the tragedy. I knew I had to go too.
Before I realised, my vision was clouded with tears and I had to hold them back for the sake of driving safely.
I'm just back from lighting candle at the police station. I don't know what I felt. It is hard to put my sentiments into words.
My insides felt like they were made of lead. I couldn't help shivering in my place when i was standing in silence, paying respects. What could I say to those who left us behind? Thanks for doing what you did? Sorry for what happened? May your souls rest in peace?
None! all I could feel was anger mixed with sadness. WHY did this happen? Who was responsible for what and who bore its outcome?
I honestly want to go back in time and change all that happened. I'm avoiding watching the television cz I know I won't be able to bear the constant replays of those events.
If this is what I feel, their families must be going through hell. I wish there was something I could to do to ease off their pain.
Today morning, while heading to the office, heard Dr. Satyapal Singh, Commisioner of Pune, on the radio announcing that you can come and pay respect to all those who lost their life in the tragedy. I knew I had to go too.
Before I realised, my vision was clouded with tears and I had to hold them back for the sake of driving safely.
I'm just back from lighting candle at the police station. I don't know what I felt. It is hard to put my sentiments into words.
My insides felt like they were made of lead. I couldn't help shivering in my place when i was standing in silence, paying respects. What could I say to those who left us behind? Thanks for doing what you did? Sorry for what happened? May your souls rest in peace?
None! all I could feel was anger mixed with sadness. WHY did this happen? Who was responsible for what and who bore its outcome?
I honestly want to go back in time and change all that happened. I'm avoiding watching the television cz I know I won't be able to bear the constant replays of those events.
If this is what I feel, their families must be going through hell. I wish there was something I could to do to ease off their pain.
P.S. disabling comments for this post
Wednesday, 18 November 2009
What's the 'F' word now?
*** Disclaimer : If you are below 18 years of age and reading this, you better go elsewhere, because, technically, you shouldn't be reading this post.
And after reading the above disclaimer, if you, yes you, below 18- minor dude/ dudette, is still reading this, let me tell you, I haven't written anything here that'll tickle your hormones... nor are there any pics that'll magnet your eyes to this screen. Basically, there's nothing here, just an aunty-ish drag post about the 'F' word. AND, if you have read till here, and do not yet know what the 'f' word is (which i'm not ready to believe, gotcha!), don't ask your parents what the 'F' word is... you'll get a beating. I'm done lecturing you here!
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I'm sure the rest of you know the 'F' word inside out. Wait a minute, I'm sure everyone knows the 'F' word inside out. Naturally, I'm included in too. However, I have never liked the word. Never even used it - not in public and not even in my own privacy. Never ever. Then why do I write about the word?
I never use it doesn't mean others don't. I know people who use the word instead of a full stop to their sentences. I know people who, when they burn up chant the word like it were a cooling mantra. I know people who say the word and quickly glance around to see if anyone has caught them mouthing the infamous 'F'. People use it with varying degrees of frequency. Each one tailor makes the usage of the word according to their convenience.
I remember staring at one of my classmate at AFP when she uttered the word out LOUD, when she remembered that she'd not done the homework. I must have stared at her till it hurt her soul, because she returned my stare with you-have-a-problem-with-that-girl-? stare back at me. I wasn't shocked, or for that matter devastated to hear it. Just amused.
Today, the word has fallen on my ears so many times, that it no longer makes me raise my eyebrows. nor do i feel uncomfortable when every noun is embellished with that adjective. It could be 'f-ing' rains to 'f-ing' ministers to 'f-ing' nonsense to 'f-ing' female to a 'f-ing' sense of humour. Nowadays the word makes me wanna crack up... which I do when the situation is clowny enough.
Basically used as a swear word, it has definitely lost all its essence. Thanks to the above mentioned. Anyhow, I never thought any swear word was ever justified. But today, I feel that swear words were meant for certain someone(s)... that they exist because people worth them exist. The people that I see around me... with hopeless behaviour, unnecessary arrogance, magnified stupidity, and rudeness beyond comprehension ... I support each and every one who throw the 'f' word at such people. Still I have maintained the sanctity of my language by not using the 'f' word.
Ok, I digressed for a paragraph... but i needed to.
Lately, 'f' resides with everyone as it is the most natural thing in the world. Not that I have a problem with it... it just doesn't register with me. I can't bring myself to use it, under whatever circumstances.... and this is what amazes me. For me its just another word, that has empty meaning and rhymes very much with "yuck". So that totally explains why i never want to use it.
I do not understand this word like I do not understand why people smoke or get drunk. For me the 'f' word is a simple confusion that I'm gonna stand and stare.
Oh, and btw, the under 18 junta, if you are still hanging in here; nothing great right?
And after reading the above disclaimer, if you, yes you, below 18- minor dude/ dudette, is still reading this, let me tell you, I haven't written anything here that'll tickle your hormones... nor are there any pics that'll magnet your eyes to this screen. Basically, there's nothing here, just an aunty-ish drag post about the 'F' word. AND, if you have read till here, and do not yet know what the 'f' word is (which i'm not ready to believe, gotcha!), don't ask your parents what the 'F' word is... you'll get a beating. I'm done lecturing you here!
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I'm sure the rest of you know the 'F' word inside out. Wait a minute, I'm sure everyone knows the 'F' word inside out. Naturally, I'm included in too. However, I have never liked the word. Never even used it - not in public and not even in my own privacy. Never ever. Then why do I write about the word?
I never use it doesn't mean others don't. I know people who use the word instead of a full stop to their sentences. I know people who, when they burn up chant the word like it were a cooling mantra. I know people who say the word and quickly glance around to see if anyone has caught them mouthing the infamous 'F'. People use it with varying degrees of frequency. Each one tailor makes the usage of the word according to their convenience.
I remember staring at one of my classmate at AFP when she uttered the word out LOUD, when she remembered that she'd not done the homework. I must have stared at her till it hurt her soul, because she returned my stare with you-have-a-problem-with-that-girl-? stare back at me. I wasn't shocked, or for that matter devastated to hear it. Just amused.
Today, the word has fallen on my ears so many times, that it no longer makes me raise my eyebrows. nor do i feel uncomfortable when every noun is embellished with that adjective. It could be 'f-ing' rains to 'f-ing' ministers to 'f-ing' nonsense to 'f-ing' female to a 'f-ing' sense of humour. Nowadays the word makes me wanna crack up... which I do when the situation is clowny enough.
Basically used as a swear word, it has definitely lost all its essence. Thanks to the above mentioned. Anyhow, I never thought any swear word was ever justified. But today, I feel that swear words were meant for certain someone(s)... that they exist because people worth them exist. The people that I see around me... with hopeless behaviour, unnecessary arrogance, magnified stupidity, and rudeness beyond comprehension ... I support each and every one who throw the 'f' word at such people. Still I have maintained the sanctity of my language by not using the 'f' word.
Ok, I digressed for a paragraph... but i needed to.
Lately, 'f' resides with everyone as it is the most natural thing in the world. Not that I have a problem with it... it just doesn't register with me. I can't bring myself to use it, under whatever circumstances.... and this is what amazes me. For me its just another word, that has empty meaning and rhymes very much with "yuck". So that totally explains why i never want to use it.
I do not understand this word like I do not understand why people smoke or get drunk. For me the 'f' word is a simple confusion that I'm gonna stand and stare.
Oh, and btw, the under 18 junta, if you are still hanging in here; nothing great right?
ETA :: Also, I find it pretty funny when they beep the word on TV. Its not like people do not know about it. The word flies off so often that I bet children know it too... why bother beeping it then?
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